// 8am thoughts//

This morning has been kind of weird..

Last night after debating for 30 minutes I called my ex and we talked. I deleted my private blog because for one I guess it wasn’t as private as I thought (that was a place for me to get out all of my anger and frustrations out about anything and everything) and for two I love/care too much about the person I made it for to even have some of the stuff I said out of anger documented. Last night I finally got some closure, we both were wrong, we both made mistakes at the end of it we were able to forgive each other and move forward. I’m still disappointed and down about losing my father and how I didn’t have that person there for me but I can somewhat understand why. We both could have handled everything so differently but there’s nothing that can be done about the past..

Onto the New Year

I’m excited for what the year has to bring as far as opportunities, people, friends etc. I don’t have any new years resolutions.. I never do it’s just easier to focus on my long term goals and short term goals I have for life and not just the year. As far as being in a relationship I know I’m not ready for one, I’m not ready, I’m not ready, I’m not ready! I’ve voiced this before to my girl and she always seems to understand, she always seems to talk me out of it because well… After dating different people that you don’t want to get attached to emotionally, you don’t want to be up all night with, you don’t want to get too close to, all you want is their company for the moment.. it gets pretty lonely. But I’ve been thinking I should just be single, because I honestly don’t wanna hurt anyone..

hope all of you have a good drunken time tonight, if we die or whatever i’ll see you in the next life!